today is not my birthday, but my friend's birthday.

although she is 6 months older than me, i recognized that i still have 2 years before 30, like her.

will i have a baby during this 2 years? will my job goes well? will i have any disease?

 i have no idea, i always think i am still a young people, still a student, but when i saw my parents's grey hair, when i notice they will retire also in this 2 years, when i saw some friends and relatives have some sickness and go to hospital, and i notice i am nearly 30 year-old and i still can not help them.

go to sleep, i can not help friends and relatives, but i can help my tired body.